At the very least, it will help you kill some time.
Enjoy.
Author’s Note
When I was twelve years old, I decided I wanted to be a
writer.
I told my father about it, and I remember the look on his
face when I did. The reaction I expected was a smile, a word of encouragement,
perhaps a gentle punch on the shoulder.
That is not what I got.
My dad is a big man, possessed of gravitas, solemnity, and
an intensely intelligent gaze. He has little patience for nonsense, and if you
ask him for his opinion you had better be prepared for a strong dose of honesty.
Because that is exactly what you are going to get. I knew this when I made my
pronouncement, but in my boyish foolishness, I expected the old man to share my
enthusiasm.
He did not.
Rather, he shuffled his feet a bit and focused on me, eyes
narrowing, mouth twisting to the side. He took a step closer, his big workman’s
hands moving to his hips, head tilting a little. It was his trademark stance of
reluctance, the mannerism which told me that whatever he said next, I was not
going to like it.
“Writing is fine, son,” he said. “But most writers don’t
make very much money. It’s a tough business to break into. I’m not saying you
shouldn’t try, or that you shouldn’t write, but you might want to do something
else to pay the bills while you’re at it.”
My father is a practical man. Always has been. Which is
understandable, considering he supported six people on a single income.
I let the matter drop until I was sixteen and facing the
prospect of my senior year of high school. Unlike many of my peers, I had no
plans after graduation. No job waiting for me, no real prospects to speak of, and
no chance my parents would put up with me mooching off them for very long. So
one bright summer day, I sat down and weighed my options.
The first thing I considered was college. I knew in order to
get into a proper university, one needed good grades and a high SAT score. I
had not yet taken the SAT, and my grades, at least until the second half of my
junior year, were not very good. I had
been a lazy student for most of my scholastic career, doing the bare minimum
necessary to get by.
Then, halfway through my junior year, I had an epiphany:
If I didn’t graduate on time, my dad was going to kill me.
So I started working harder, and in the space of about six
weeks, went from being a C student to being on the honor roll. I practically
floated when I showed my old man that first much-improved report card.
“I always knew you were smart, boy,” my father said, jabbing
me in the chest with one thick finger. “Ever since seventh grade, your test
scores have been in the stratosphere, but you always get Cs on your report
card. Ain’t it amazing how much better your grades look when you get off your
lazy ass and do your homework?”
I know. A beautiful father-son moment.
Anyway, despite my newfound diligence, the damage was done.
Even if I could maintain my good grades all throughout my senior year, my GPA
upon graduation would be, best case scenario, two point one.
Not exactly Ivy League material.
Compounding this difficulty was the fact that I had no
money, no college fund, my father couldn’t afford to pay for my education, and
my car was a piece of shit. Which meant I would have to start out at community
college, find a part-time job, finance my education with student loans, and
arrange transportation when my car broke down. Which it did, frequently.
College was out, at least for the time being.
Okay, I thought. If I don’t go to college, I have to get a
job.
But that wasn’t such a great option either. I lived between
two small towns in rural North Carolina—which is to say, I lived in the middle
of nowhere—and there wasn’t much work to be had. I could apply at the grocery
store in Waxhaw, or try to find something over in Monroe, but how would I get
back and forth?
Car a piece of shit. No public transportation. Maybe I can talk dad into helping me buy a
better car?
I looked at the condition of his old red pickup truck.
Scratched paint, busted side view mirror, rust on the fenders, tires nearly
bald. He couldn’t even afford a better vehicle for himself, much less for me. Not that I didn’t think he would do it;
he most likely would have. But I didn’t want to create any more financial
burdens for my father. The way I saw it, he had sacrificed enough for me and I
was not about to ask him for anything else.
So what was I going to do?
I had not explored the military option yet, nor did I
consider it at the time. It would be another seven months before I walked into
the Navy recruiter’s office in Monroe and made a decision that would change my
life forever. Before I would hold up my seventeen-year-old right hand, swear an
oath, and feel the gravity of the situation begin to sink in.
What I did, rather, was climb into my 1985 Chevrolet
Cavalier—blue, bald tires, crumpled left-front fender, hairline fracture in the
windshield, broken spring in the driver’s seat that constantly poked me in the
ass, suspicious stain in the back from the time I let my older brother borrow
it to drive his girlfriend to work—and proceeded to one of my favorite places
in the world.
The public library.
I found a book about publishing. It was written by a
successful author whose name I forgot long ago. He laid it all out for me.
Query letters, agents, publishing houses, editors, the contentious relationship
between publishers and bookstores, the difficulties, the years of fruitless
toil, the thousands of rejections, the heartache, the struggle to get noticed.
And, finally, the sweet redemption of landing his first book deal.
For a lousy four-grand advance.
And a seven percent royalty.
After twenty years of trying.
I put the book back on the shelf, got in my car, and drove
home. It would be fourteen years before I considered writing again.
So what changed, you ask? Why, after fourteen years, did I
decide to take the plunge?
Kindle Direct Publishing. That’s why.
I learned about KDP after my wife bought me my first Kindle
back in 2010, not too long after Amazon launched the KDP platform. I remember
thinking to myself, so let me get this
straight. No editors, no agents, no query letters, no publishing contracts, and
no rejections. All I have to do is write the book, make a cover, and publish
it.
What was I waiting for?
This decision was facilitated by a mini-crisis I was going
through at the time. A crisis aptly titled, My Thirtieth Birthday. You see, my
twenties just sort of flew by. I joined the Navy and did that for six years,
got out, started college, found a job, finished college, fathered a child, and
then one morning, out of nowhere, my twenties were over with.
Gone. Finished.
And me standing around looking confused, vaguely pointing in
the direction of those lost years mumbling, “What the hell happened here? I
just turned twenty-one, like, three weeks ago. How am I thirty, now? Is this
how all my birthdays are going to feel from now on?”
In response to this
anxiety, and as a way to try to control the uncontrollable, I took stock of my
life. I reviewed all that I had accomplished up to that point. I thought of
what I had done, what I wanted to do before I died—a prospect that seemed much
more visceral and close that it once had—and I made a list.
I won’t bore you with the whole list, lest I engender your
pity and contempt. But at the top of it, with a big number one beside it, were
three words:
Write a book.
KDP. Thirtieth birthday. Lifelong dream. The unavoidable
imminence of death.
I remember thinking, let’s
do this.
And I did.
Ten months later, I published No Easy Hope. Seven months after that, This Shattered Land went live. Then Warrior Within. The Passenger.
And now, well on its way to completion, Fire
in Winter.
At the time of this writing, the Surviving the Dead series
has sold over 89,000 copies in just over two years.
Burn Them All is
next.
Then, Savages.
Gladiator of Corsryn.
Bronze Star.
And that’s just the next couple of years.
What happens after that, I don’t know. But I’ll figure it
out, and I will enjoy every single minute of it. Because all those years ago,
despite his father’s warning, that kid was right. Writing is the best damn job
a person can have.
If you are already a fan of the series contained herein, I
want to say thank you. Seriously. From the bottom of my heart. Thank you. You
are the reason I am able to do what I love and make a living at it.
If you are new to the series, thank you as well. I hope you
have as much fun reading these books as I did writing them, and I hope you come
along on future journeys.
If your name is Keary Taylor, and you are the wonderful
young lady who did all the cover art for this series, thank you as well. A good
cover helps an author get noticed, and without your efforts, I doubt this
series would have found nearly as much success.
Last, but most importantly, thank you to my wife and family
for supporting me and encouraging me to stop dreaming and make it happen. My
life wouldn’t be worth much without you.
Now do me a favor. Stop reading this and turn the page.
And enjoy.
James N. Cook
Charlotte, NC
11/27/2013
Different part of the country, different career track, though with a seemingly similar upbringing and trajectory. I now find myself a Director at successful NYC Hedge Fund and still sometimes feel like I am still a child playing at being an adult.
ReplyDeleteI very much enjoyed the "Surviving The Dead Series" and thought that the 3rd book was the best of the series. I like my action grounded and you have delivered in spades. I also appreciate your commenting on my review of the first in the series. I was too late to the party to offer a review for 2 & 3. I am looking forward to #4.
Happy holidays to you and your family.
Joseph Kohout
suntszu@aol.com
Same story...half way through high school and wham! Then 20 years of service to figure out what I wanted to do with myself. Now I'm happy with a family and a good job that I actually enjoy.
ReplyDeleteThoroughly enjoyed reading your "Surviving the Dead Series" and appreciate all your hard work in sharing your thoughts.
Good luck and keep 'em flowing!
D